I did something stupid I know I have yet I can’t help it or stop. I wish I could. People pretend they’re upset and use it as an excuse to harm and then show it off to everyone like it’s a fashion accessory when really that isn’t the case with people actually facing depression. They have it including me a diagnosis of depression/suicidal issues,they don’t want it. They didn’t ask for it. I have my weaknesses where I give in and harm but I don’t show it off it’s between me and only me. I’m showing you this now not as a fashion accessory or to be hypocritical but harm isn’t a joke. I don’t want to do this it isn’t fun. I’ve become so numb to my feelings and others around me where I no longer care. I don’t want to be in this game of life or death. If I could I wouldn’t be like this but no one is perfect. We all have out flaws and our fights mine is against depression.